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numb (prod. monni tyzhu)
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shit ain been workin still been servin, lurkin in the darkness never turnin,
so cold but im still burnin, so sick numb the hurtin,
turn off the lights close the curtains, imma end all of my burdens,
cant let shit worsen, but somedays im barely a person
i barely know who still fuck wit me, bby dont even tryn trust me,
still a dirty fucked up junkie, fried my mind still gettin money,
just 2 live past 20 im lucky, even when life so ugly,
if i cant get high im more then grumpy, sometimes everyday feels like monday,
now im high now im gone, pretend that nothings wrong,
and sing 2 myself this song, all day all night long,
never felt like anywhere i belonged, all them times i was wronged,
all that evil that was spawned, then wait till im called upon
shit ain been workin still been servin, lurkin in the darkness never turnin,
so cold but im still burnin, so sick numb the hurtin,
turn off the lights close the curtains, imma end all of my burdens,
cant let shit worsen, but somedays im barely a person
shit ain been workin still been servin, lurkin in the darkness never turnin,
so cold but im still burnin, so sick numb the hurtin,
turn off the lights close the curtains, imma end all of my burdens,
cant let shit worsen, but somedays im barely a person
sometimes im barely a person, i cant let this shit worsen,
jus tryna numb all the hurtin, so sick tryna numb all thats hurting
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rain fallin ignorin all the calls n, i woke up still noddin,
woke up still haunted, all these highs 2 go get lost in,
walkin roun wit em all in a pocket,
im still sellin bags, dreamside 2099 black flag,
gettin high off ether rags, dont care bout my genre tag,
finally gettin money im so sick so glad, and i keep my haters all mad,
what they thought it was, came thru shootin off the yellow tuss,
needa replace my guts they on rust, and the whole world can get fucked,
8 billion bitches no trust, yea im always high wats the fuss,
no i can never do enough,runs a eternal in my blood this is my true love
so many drugs it start 2 lag, best sex she ever had,
ion even remember tho damn, brain so fried i jus need bands,
so if we fuck bby bring the cash, and i’lll leave it burnin wit the ash
brain burnin, burnin, till it go n crash, somethings i cant leave in the past,
and i dont even know if i can, and i dont even know if i can..
on 4 different opiates thts jus the dope, 1200 dollar pints 600 dollar smoke,
dont need it but i bought my beam a scope, still servin still burnin cash never goin broke,
u busted tht shit u sniffin ain no coke, know ur street pass already been revoked,
life tough but i got a few ways 2 cope, dope dick givin her the stroak n choke,
and they praise me like im the pope, and my opps still hatin fact im breathin got em provoked,
naa we gon cutt off ur hopes (i know they all jus jokes)
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reloaded im redosing, ego bby im always pourin potent,
so sick got 500 diagnosis, needa numb it all heart slowin,
no i cant ever love my hearts frozen, i cant leave it all broken,
just get higher and numb emotions, just rewire the minds coding,
nothing is certain, cant ask for perfect
sometimes i jus feel so worthless, sometimes its all jus hurtin,
tryna find a way a purpose, before i fall off the surface,
and getting high is all thats workin, demonic form i cant b turnin,
if i gotta fuck it im still servin, all my haters nerds prolly still virgin
life hurts thats why im off like 20 percs,
dont fuck wit ego he cursed, i useda sleep wit the dirt,
noddin off on ery single verse, look like im on dope at the concert,
enjoy life cant let it get worse, i made like 20k jus off my shirts
no lie and i still cant die, even offa all these pills n pints im fine,
poppin pills bitch i ain snortin lines, jones soda fuck aroun n pour a five,
(really really dont kno how im still alive)
reloaded im redosing, ego bby im always pourin potent,
so sick got 500 diagnosis, needa numb it all heart slowin,
no i cant ever love my hearts frozen, i cant leave it all broken,
just get higher and numb emotions, just rewire the minds coding,
another crib i trapped out got evicted, nothing left now except my addictions
in the hotel suite on 6 prescriptions, made alotta poor decisions,
ain goin back on the streets fuk my critics, cant die cant be another statistic,
so sick shout out my physicians, shoutout the real heads for listenin,
she say she wanna taste my curse, bbygirl u never wanna feel this hurt,
she wanted percs now im in her purse, wasn anythin worth stealin im the worst,
ah fuck i made like 20k jus off my shirts, and these dior no they ain no fukn converse,
dreamside 2099 2 late 4 converts, we done all the dirt shush, shush dont get hurt
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another fake friend love 2 lie when u talk, n now he scared he know i love when bodies drop,
and i can do any dirt never get caught, cuz i stay clean u fukrs lost,
and i hope u ain gotta pay the cost, i was walkin thru all ur spots,
and no one did shit didn hear a shot, 2 many yall really talk 2 the cops,
these oxys the only thing tht rly hit, doubt u even kno how 2 make a fist,
ii ain rly trippin i knew they wud switch, never cud handle me always 2 sick,
never had my back u was always a bitch, but then u run 2 me when the tables flip,
na na fuck all tht shit, now u gon get drowned out like u in a ditch
why they mad i did it my way, they always got sumn 2 say,
assumptions judgements all tht fuck shit, im really down for whatevr is nothin,
u kno ii really beat tht boy at the function, not jus one i hit sum got no repercussions,
and these highs im still lovin, n i got the best girl so like fuck this,
imma get high n let the fakes slide, but jus kno this’ll be the last time,
next up u really wont feel fine, when the knives touch ur spine
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im from the city fenty came from, caught bodies bby no gun,
no safety on the 45 no safety iin the slum, police beat me in mtl thot i was done,
but i stayed down another yr i nevr run, became untouchable unlovable servin drugs
feds it all jus music get clapped wit a drum,my lil bro caught his 3rd thts 30k in cash sums,
we stay up servin never see the sun,and none my junkies ever feel done,
u talk tht talk did it all but made it back, talk the talk but u scared 2 trap,
chek our spots got scales fiend n gats, packs a crack n fent in saran wrap,
take one dose and u fall off the map, knock off ur cap, wit one snap,
when it come 2 action we kno u ain bout tht, lay u out on concrete wit the dirt n scraps,
let ur blood pour down all the cracks, so so sick still on synthetic dope shit
didn even really know it cud get like this..
so sick
i did this shit half asleep, come down when another hi peaks,
it never ends it jus repeats, out servin rain fallin in the street,
dont even remember how 2 be, me without all these evil needs,
im from the city fenty came from, caught bodies bby no gun,
no safety on the 45 no safety iin the slum, police beat me in mtl thot i ws done,
but i stayed down another yr i nevr run, became untouchable unlovable servin drugs
feds it all jus music get clapped wit a drum,my lil bro caught his 3rd thts 30k in cash sums,
we stay up servin never see the sun,and none my junkies ever feel done,
im from the city fenty came from, caught bodies bby no gun,
wit no gun, no gun
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all the drugs get crosssed, all my love got lost,
now i sit and let myself rot, convinced tht i cant stop,
i been gettin high i been stuck, knowin tht the world fucked,
fillin up another cup, rust my organs off the tuss,
since 16 i been servin the cut, make a play jus need a lil luck,
in montreal they love meth i served dust, i served all ur friends cut mud
all the drugs get crosssed, all my love got lost,
now i sit and let myself rot, convinced tht i cant stop,
i been down bad depressed, now im like fuck all the stress,
pour more ash on the flo make a mess, i cant sit n wait on death,
jus wanted 2 feel a lil less, numb it all feelings n pills repressed,
sellin dope on my s-m-s, pop an oxy n im possessed
get the pints all stretched,
will i see everyone i love if i take my life, it jus really dont seem that it feels right
and the memories haunting me tonight, hope you never know what this feels like
hope you never know what this pain is like
been down such a dark road, so much u dont wanna know,
dont know where 2 call home, i was in the streets i roamed,
still pourin 4’s in styra foam, all these highs just how it goes,
cant answer messages on my phone, even the pretty girls i leave alone ,
im at a point i jus cant care much, cant really get high enough,
always feel everythings in a rush, and i know why u hada give up,
im back pourin out plenty cups, oxy 80s n dilaudid i took a bunch,
will i see everyone i love if i take my life, it jus really dont seem that it feels right
and the memories haunting me tonight, hope you never know what this feels like
hope you never know what this pain is like
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july (prod. lexington)
04:03
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hidin in the dark from all my problems, u can find me in the forest often,
walkin round thinkin thru my options, see now how much worse it gotten,
so numb so cold i cant soften, pill poppin in my coffin
its jus me n all this oxycontin
u can mark my death as exhaustion, been up for days im so lost in,
i sacrificed so much for this i’d never stop, jus some roadblocks fuck the cops,
fuck the law they want us 2 rot, but now we never gettin caught,
pocket might still b fulla rocks, jus so i can make upa few knots,
yea u can judge me if u want, but sometimes servin all i got
and packs we got lots, so im movin em till i make the price drop
gotta keep somethin in my pocket always, i been up yea like 4 days,
off the drank oxy n all my evil wayz, so numb no nothin can phase,
sometimes u get stuck in the maze, walk in my room u in a haze,
look at me my eyes all red n glazed, anythin u ever knew the evil replaced
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purify, purify
u can never purify
rid this flesh
sometimes i jus wanna die
purify, purify
one of a million cries,
one of a million nights,
purify, purify
nothing matters much, i been lookin for a rush,
ruin everything i touch, and i got no hopes for love,
u cud blame it on the drugs, but is on me never can have enough,
is on me im jus really fucked, u dont wanna talk 2me just hush,
i feed on the hate n the love, i useda cut myself n watch the blood
now i jus do drugs, now i jus get numb,
now it jus hurts so much, now it just hurts so much
never can i have enough
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im 2 hot for harm reduction, i need all the drugs 2 function,
whole world done corrupted, got my girl waitin on instructions,
shoot at cops we on fukshit, they useda beat me give concussions,
now im the one who get 2 bustin, over the smoothest production
money an illusion get 2 spendin, burn my credit is endless,
brain keep breakin keep descending, no more exits infinite fences,
imma buy a big pendant n neckless, big diamonds big drugs im trendin
mufukr we come thru reck shit, sellin drugs then i spend it,
dreamside 2099 representin, till past final endin,
burnin burnin hell i was servin, sell smack out the suburban,
slicin dicin all u rats n vermin, off the dope i get 2 turnin,
demonic form the inversion, doin dope like a perversion,
(for the dragon i was searchin, then i ate it and took its purpose )
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i wonder why they say im evil, maybe its cuz my doses be lethal,
and i know every drug should be legal, fuck the law they jus hurt people,
shoot em down like a needle, gotta kill some pigs and make it equal,
make it hurt show em how it feel, make it hurt fuck how they feel,
ego so evil im still bout action, im not weak i still do damage,
darkness i stay attracting,
up for days im never lackin, i could never miss a package,
cuz gettin highs my passion, i hiss n growl like marilyn manson,
and i got doczs for dope like michael jackson
i needa make sum m’s, i’ll rest once im dead,
or get the money n stay in bed, bring me bitches n pintsa red,
either way imma get 2 the bread, n keep poppin pills tht kills like lead,
its the only way i get out my head, sorry if i left ur message on sent
sorry im not really sorry im already dead
i wonder why they say im evil, maybe its cuz my doses be lethal,
and i know every drug should be legal, fuck the law they jus hurt people,
shoot em down like a needle, gotta kill some pigs and make it equal,
make it hurt show em how it feel, make it hurt fuck how they feel,
fuck the war on drugs.. fuck police.. did the same shit wit crack in the 80s..
do the same shit that killing us now wit fentanyl
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im tryna fuck tryna fuck like 8 billion bitches,
neck 2 neck 2 next i switches, crossin names off my wishlist,
im on dilaudid they love dope dick, im so sick like how i exist,
i jus fell out the glitch, heard u fell out wit ur bitch,
she gave me ur money for a kiss, n i didnt even hit,
is like the ocean fulla fish, drownin in dick she drip
beat the pussy back 2 pink, same color as my drinkk,
if u been out take a rinse, im so fresh so clean so sick,
make her neck bend exorcist, imma giggalo imma get so rich
got plenty hoes but ion love a single bit, ego so evil yea she really liking this
and im still on it never off it, dilaudid i stay so lost in,
jus reupped the script got all my toxins, yea includin the oxycontin
exhausted immortal i paid the costs nx, no theres no way im ever stoppin,
u thought that shit was smart, get shot like a dart
imma hit em in the heart,
heartbreaker soultaker
(heartbreaker soultaker jus 2 start)
beat the pussy back 2 pink, same color as my drinkk,
if u been out take a rinse, im so fresh so clean so sick,
make her neck bend exorcist, imma giggalo imma get so rich
got plenty hoes but ion love a single bit, ego so evil yea she really liking this
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i wish i wasn like this often, i dont wanna live for oxycontin,
i been tryna stop it i jus been so lost in, lost most my friends 2 all these toxins,
stuck in exhaustion fantasizin bout the coffin, my heart been froze cant soften,
i sold drugs for years i cant work the office, i get high cuz this world make me nauseous
lost in lost in lost in, oxycontin, oxycontin, oxycontin,
aint got no way 2 stop it, stop it, stop it,
(i dont wanna jus b an addict, everyday jus tryna numb sadness)
(i cant get out of these bad habits)
fried numb droolin broken brain chemistry, i did all em drugs young wasnt the best for me,
fried neurons sumn wrong wit me chemically, all em oxy 80’s downed wit hennessy,
all these synthetic dopes gon b the end of me, never cared they thought less of me,
killin me softly jus wanna rest in peace, these drugs all tht gon miss me when i leave
worryin if my girl hate me now, i been fukn up these drugs keep me down,
might have get back 2 movin pounds, is easyy cant ever forget how,
gettin up jus 2 get high, wonderin how i even get by,
wonderin why im still alive, when eryone hada go n die,
off the same shit, no i dont wanna face it, what it laced wit
jus numb n erase it, jus numb on fent layin,
all the bad memories replayin, in my brain i hate it,
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and the highs never rly what i want, but usually its all i got,
no i cant stop, no i cant stop, gotta feed myself useda remix rerock,
cut anyone off if they talkin 2 cops, bleep bloop bitch u all fukn bots,
all tht trollin might get u shot, bodys drop for the knots
so sick, sick so sick (x100)
im jus a drugged out glitch, dilaudid diamonds in my fist,
crush em up shit, u ain wan do this,
bust it up quick, all these pills bought my fukn wrist,
fake docs and the therapist, writin me all my fukn scripts,
saucey bitch yea it drank dipped, toss that shit then i fukn dip,
made my profit then im over it, back home im pourin it,
im wit my girl wit ur girl put a four in it, got yo whorin shit
ego so evil abhorrent
whole team glowin, make ur girl get hoein,
drugs that get u floatin, sellin all these potions,
jus goin thru the motions, makin money u kno it,
frozen numb no emotion, comin thru lil piece im totin,
u bleedin more liquid then the ocean, ego bby he really owns it,
all that evil im a show it, all that evil lets get goin
so devoted, and they sayin we so hopeless, but u kno we goin
(whole team glowing)
and the highs never rly what i want, but usually its all i got,
no i cant stop, no i cant stop, gotta feed myself useda remix rerock,
cut anyone off if they talkin 2 cops, bleep bloop bitch u all fukn bots,
all tht trollin might get u shot, bodys drop for the knots
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and i want oxy that last forever, all ties 2 my old life i severed,
for the worse or for the better, dopamine on iv for my pleasure,
i stay high inside in the nice weather, thought i was dead i got deader,
and its all for u, u were gone out the blue,
and i still cant get over lost loves, being hooked on hard drugs,
i always hada do 2 much, so i get why im sum1 u cant trust,
tried 2 play like i didn give a fuck, got so lost i cant have enough,
mistakes i made a graph of escapes, these pills i take,
jus 2 watch my brain break, sum things i cant shake,
sumtimes u jus have 2 wait, wait for deaths embrace
what did i say? jus forget it okay, forget it all today
and i want oxy that last forever, all ties 2 my old life i severed,
for the worse or for the better, dopamine on iv for my pleasure,
i stay high inside in the nice weather, thought i was dead i got deader,
i know im out of my mind, still think of u all the time,
all these drugs get high or die, i been up for days pourin lines,
up for days n i still cant find, still feel empty inside,
sippin tryna hold myself back, get high like my first time relapse,
i still got oxy trams n loratabs, morphine clonaz n a lotta xans,
none it can heal all this bad, i did so much its all i am,
fuck it i cant die yet damn, but i feel like i loose erythin i have
every time i withdraw yea
aw fuck its 2 much, aw fuck its 2 much damn
and i want oxy that last forever, all ties 2 my old life i severed,
for the worse or for the better, dopamine on iv for my pleasure,
i stay high inside in the nice weather, thought i was dead i got deader,
poppin these pills jus 2 forget her, but i always still remember
still remember
and i still get fukd up n write u sad letters, knowing u dont open em never
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i gavea fuck i really did, then my brain spilled out my skin,
gotta live my life in sin, delete myself from the grid,
everything everyone forbid, i already went and did,
fried my brain wit fenty strips, say it a million times im so sick
dont tell me anythin more, im pourin like two fours,
oxycontin thats my main course, for dessert im drownin in surp,
im so fried fried cant get worse, 3 days went thru 30 percs,
i make halfa band offa verse, then i spend it all on my curse,
and i was jus sittin there wastin, i be sleepin gettin payments,
never payed for no placements, ego bby u cant erase it,
but they try and copy paste it, u ain rly kno tho what im laced wit,
dreamside bby dont care if i make it, ego bby haunted cursed forsaken
please end please be over, i drift around never sober,
wit a demon on my shoulder, and im takin all its orders,
crush dilaudid pestle mortar, dont sweat when i cross the border,
im buy more ice colder n colder, need alotta drugs cuz this world a horror,
they used me as a steppin stone, mufukrs sad they all jus clones,
im 1 of 1 bby always alone, yall jus threaten on the phone,
i beat u down when im throwed, leave ur lil shows postponed
shuda stayed quiet it shows, why play gangster when u hoes??
i gavea fuck i really did, then my brain spilled out my skin,
gotta live my life in sin, delete myself from the grid,
everything everyone forbid, i already went and did,
fried my brain wit fenty strips, say it a million times im so sick
so sick (x100)
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tolerance raisin, dont keep up wit my pacin,
oxy wit dilaudid we lacin, gettin payments u kno they hatin,
burn it turn it cant escape it, wastin money i ain phased shit,
take that then i take this, jus poured out a pint a triss,
imma walkin lick and im talkin shit,
walkin wit bricks, talkin shit,
pull up wit clips u better empy em bitch,
if i didnt waste id b so rich, but i love it like this
chasin the dragon then i became the dragon,
mufukrs get blasted high ever lastin, we bout the action,
we got evil is active, we the plugs n we nevr lackin,
u will never feel nothin like this satisfaction, that why all the heads happen
chasin the dragon, the high jus draggin,
she lyin nex 2 me eyes all saggin, askin myself how this even happen
askin myself what am i attractin, cuz i kno this shit wont b lastin
it all started jus wit the 30s, she told me no it wont hurt me,
tellin her u cant play it get so dirty, ruin any purity,
she was doin foilies of my percies, she hit the plug n curved me,
then i hit the plug 2 for the worst me, dilaudid n 80s no more 30s,
bby girl u rly brought the worst a me, n now all i can do is hurt yes please
mufukrs gon go n jus tease, we gon go n take more wit ease,
you gon see me in the hospital wit a od
you gon see me in the hospital wit a od
like did you even really know me
chasin the dragon then i became the dragon,
mufukrs get blasted high ever lastin, we bout the action,
we got evil is active, we the plugs n we nevr lackin,
u will never feel nothin like this satisfaction, that why all the heads happen
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cant do it without you
cant do it without you
cant do it without you
cant do it without you
cant do it without you
cant do it without you
never cud b witout u
cant do it without you
alienated isolated dont kno wat 2 say, or who i left it jus all astray,
sumtimes wish no one knew my name, really wish no one knew my pain
since damacy died since shi died since my cat died since my dogs died i ain been the same,
im die for all tht died is a chain, never break i cant handle the endless rain,
and im sorry i dont call much grandma, since dawn died i tried 2 be better four ya,
tht was when iwas like 16 i learned my aunt died when i was out gettin hi pourin lean,
u died from drinkin and em benzos please,
only one who said i shud b off em ampthetamines, when i was a kid saved me,
and if u hear this know i love u n u been, in my thoughts all the dead alwys in my dreams,
i love u mom im sorry for all u seen, all i been im sorry all the times i hada leave,
fentanyl i became such a fien, stuck in my head in all em past scenes
all the past went n left me, no i cant get back nothing lets me
i wish i didn’t need all these drugs, i wish i cud feel the love,
i wish i was there huh, please wait me for really fuck,
so many ways just 2 give up, so many highs but its never enough,
i jus hope u can feel my love feel my trust, i cud never see u 2 much,
please b wit me forever,, jus stick wit me forever
(i cudn do u wrong never)
please b wit me forever,, jus stick wit me forever
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ego mackey Vancouver, British Columbia
the worst of the worst
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